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There was a spark somewhere in the horizon. She started walking in its direction. She walked for hours, but the spark didn't seem to get any closer. She was hungry, but she hadn't brought any food, she wished she had thought it better. It was cold, but she didn't have any coat, she wished she had been more preventive. It was getting dark, but she could still see the spark. She thought it must have been something so perfect that was worth taking the risk. The sky was covered with clouds that night, not any other light could be seen. She kept walking with perseverance, that's all she had left. She regretted having left, she wished she would have known something so perfect couldn't be any easy to reach. But she was already there and she wasn't gonna give up. Time passed by, but she didn't notice it anymore. Sun raised up again, but she didn't see it. The spark was finally getting closer. She couldn't believe her eyes when she saw it. She felt on the floor right next to it and wished she had never been born.

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There's a thousand eyes on me. I can't move. Breathing is hard. All is blury, except for the eyes. They are all expecting me to take another step. But I'm too afraid. I've been here before. All that's left is fear and shame. I don't want to move. I want to stay still forever. But I can't. I want to do it differently, but they won't let me Is it them? Or is it me? I've lost track already. I can't tell anymore and no one will help me, all they do is confuse me. They say they aren't judging. But I feel their eyes ripping off my skin, cell by cell. And I'm defenseless. I take a step. It feels like I'm falling. Will it be like this forever?

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Every word you say is a lie. But you don't seem to know that. You're so convinced of it all that scares. Sometimes I like to think that you will wake up one day and realize that your whole life is a lie. But it will be too late by then because the world would have ended up for you. And you will wonder why you didn't want to hear. You've had huge signs but you've ignored them all. And you would have nothing left but regret.

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How much I wish you were here. There's something that doesn't let me breath and I know that only you could take it away. But you're so far away. I need you. Why can't you be here with me? The simple idea of having you with me, eases the pain. But what if it makes the magic go away? What if nothing is truly what it seems? I couldn't stand that, it would break my heart. I'd take that risk for you, if only I could. I'd be the one you need me to be because you make me a better person.

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It was so out of the blue that I didn't even had time think of how to react. I just did it. Everybody was staring, but I didn't even have the mind clear enough to care about it. I can't say it was magical. I had no idea you felt that way. We got carried away. It felt surprisingly natural. Your mouth tasted delicious. I wanted that kiss to last forever. But we weren't meant for each other, not that way. As soon as we got apart, we knew that that was already part of the past. We hugged consoling each other and kept on dancing pretending nothing had ever happened.

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When I left home this morning, all I wanted to do was to have my cup of coffee at the usual bar like I always do. I mean, why would I want to change something that works perfectly well? But something felt different this morning. I tried to ignore it, but it didn't feel good at all. Something was wrong, but I didn't know what it was. When I got to the bar, my heart skipped a beat. It was closed. I was so shocked that I couldn't react. I was just there, standing if front of the door just staring at it. When I recovered, I went to the shop next door and asked if they knew anything about it. They looked at me as if I was asking something insane. They told me the bar had been closed for 7 years now. I started laughing cause I was sure they were all playing a joke on me, like those on TV. The look in their eyes got weirder. That's when I started to think that maybe it wasn't a joke. But, how could it be? I've been there every single day for the last 7 years. They couldn't be right, but they couldn't be wrong. I started screaming. I couldn't understand a thing. It didn't make sense, nothing of it made sense. I knew screaming wouldn't help, but it was the only thing I could do. My mind was so confused. A man in a blue suit appeared out of nowhere and told me to calm down. I didn't want to calm down; my whole world was tearing apart. Who was him to tell me what to do anyways? He had no idea of what keeping a routine means. Cause by then I was sure that that people were lying to me. I've been there yesterday; I've been there every single day. They were all liars. And they would all pay for it.

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It was midnight, I was ready to go to bed when I heard a knock on my door. When I went to answer, I didn't see anybody. There was a little piece of paper on the floor with my name on it. I turned it around and read 'Go to the park, to the seat where you have lunch everyday'. I was astounded and a little bit scared. Still, I got some clothes on, took the bus and went there. I couldn't see anything from afar. As I got closer, I was able to see a little shadow on the sit. A blood red rose illuminated by the moon light was waiting for me. There was also a note written in chalk. When I started reading it, a familiar voice distracted me. I didn't get to turn around by the time his strong arms were surrounding my body. He was wearing my favourite perfume. He was back and I knew that nobody could ever take him away from me anymore.